xoxo ([info]h0tgloss) wrote,
@ 2009-04-26 23:59:00
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I cant eat
if i do eat, i throw it up
im balling my eyes out 24/7
i just want to disapear.



I have a broken heart.
&got broken up for the ugliest girl everrrrr.

He goes from me,
to thisss....


http://photos-a.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs019.snc1/3025_635547565536_11511433_37443640_3545636_n.jpg


http://photos-g.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs019.snc1/3025_635547505656_11511433_37443630_3455099_n.jpg


seriously. what did i do?

im not skinny enough, or pretty enough. somethings wrong with me. i just want to be his perfect princess again :( but now our perfect family is torn apart :(

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[info]alexisjulian
2009-04-27 07:08 am UTC (link)
You actually looked very beautiful and a lot like that here...

Vanessa, you are beautiful. You're beautiful without the fake tan, without the processed hair - you are at your best when you're all natural and YOU!

What did you do? Honey, skinny and pretty can't fix this. You've been emotionally toying with him for awhile. Vanessa, seriously, EVERYONE ON YOUR FRIENDS PAGE WANTS THE BEST FOR YOU! We are trying as hard as we can to get the message across but it's just not hitting you yet - maybe this is the wake up call you need. You hooked up with his best friend; you've been emotionally playing with Kyle; you haven't been loyal to him. And believe me, no amount of physical beauty can make that inner ugly go away. You NEED to turn things around for Zoeys sake. Get yourself mentally in the right place, start making good decisions and he'll realize you are the good person he fell in love with. Until that day, you're shit out of luck babe.

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[info]11centz
2009-04-27 07:10 am UTC (link)
I couldn't have said it better.

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[info]linnylooloo
2009-04-27 07:15 am UTC (link)
you said it much better than me, all of it. i don't know if anyone can say it better, really.

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[info]1026_love
2009-04-27 08:08 am UTC (link)
Agreed.

if he's open to the idea, i think you should seek counseling together and re-build trust with each other. if he's not interested, i still think it may be a good thing for you. just to clear your mind, get some advice, etc. Prioritizing your life should be #1 right now. If you can't do it alone, i'm sure youll have no problem finding the support you need!

Good luck to you.

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[info]luckymojo
2009-04-27 03:58 pm UTC (link)
i absolutely agree with alexis here.



Edited at 2009-04-27 04:18 pm UTC

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[info]linnylooloo
2009-04-27 07:13 am UTC (link)
you are beautiful. don't chalk this up to your looks. looks have nothing to do with love. don't lower yourself to insulting the appearance of another girl, you're so much better than that! i know that's only what you're doing because you're so upset right now, i know the feeling. it's understandable, it is. but like i said in sg, show justin and everyone else that you're better than that. hold your head up high and be the kind, sweet girl that you are, for yourself and for zoe.

and get those two books asap! you will be so, so glad that you did.

i was in your place 4 months ago and it still hurts, but nothing like it did at first. i promise, things will get better. it's simply a matter of time. it's going to hurt like hell, and i know it seems impossible now, but it's going to get better. ♥

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[info]_crazyforloving
2009-04-27 09:26 am UTC (link)
The first comment said it all. You know some guys go for personality.

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[info]mop_top417
2009-04-27 12:47 pm UTC (link)
First of all, the greatest gift you can give a child is TWO HAPPY PARENTS. It doesn't matter if they are together or apart. From what you've posted before, you guys have been broken up for a while though. I know it sucks, but you can't have your cake and eat it too. :( If you want to be with Justin, you show him the exact opposite of that. HUGS. I know sometimes our egos take a blow when the person who we thought would always be there, despite what we did, moves on, but it's not fair to YOU, HIM, or ZOE for you to both be in this tumultuous relationship. I know you feel like it's a blow to you and yourself, but really, isn't it fair for Justin to be able to find happiness? You've been trying to make yourself happy seeing other people. The best gift you can give someone you love is the freedom to make themselves happy. You have to admit to yourself that you guys haven't been a perfect family in quite some time, but it's just time to redefine your definition of a perfect family and start working towards being friends with Justin so that you guys can raise your daughter.

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[info]lalabloopbloop
2009-04-27 01:48 pm UTC (link)
seriously, what did you do? hook up with other guys. i don't know if he knows about it... but if you've been hooking up with his best friend or texting other guys... obviously you weren't giving him the attention a boyfriend deserves and didn't feel loved. he didn't break up with you because you weren't skinny enough or you weren't pretty enough. if you really want to be his "perfect" princess again... be more responsible! show him you're a wonderful mommy, not a party girl who loves all the men.

p.s.: you ARE prettier than her. but who knows? maybe he picked someone that is not considered hot because there's less risk that she'll hook up with other guys and hurt him.

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[info]ohhlovah
2009-04-27 03:18 pm UTC (link)
You are fucking hott!& that chick is just trailor trash. is he fucking blind? you don't need his ass he will realize soon what he lost. what a fucking idot though seriously what the fuck?! ily girl hang in there sweetpea a good guy will come around soon! ♥

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[info]luckymojo
2009-04-27 04:16 pm UTC (link)
i agree with the first comment, but i just wanted to add that NO family is perfect, sweetie.
things happen, dreams fade, pieces break, shit falls apart. that's life...

but with that said, do you really think partying, hooking up with his best friend (among other guys), and it just really doesn't come across to a lot of people that you're being responsible. your love for zoey isn't in question, but you just don't seem like you're being responsible ot focusing on the right things. instead of trying to starve yourself, tan yourself to death, blow a ton of money on the latest trendy clothes, and go out and party and take pictures of yourself drunk, take responsibility for your actions, get serious about your job and school and your child and your future.
if you really wanted to be with justin you wouldn't be doing all of these uber self-destructive things to yourself and grow up and act like a mature 21-year old. that's not to say you aren't allowed to party or have a good time, but i think you need to focus on what's really the most important to you.
posting pictures of his new girl is really childish, sweetie. she may not be attractive, physically or otherwise in your eyes, but he obviously sees something in her that makes him like her. your beef isn't with her, so attacking her like that is just really silly.

hope it all works out, vanessa, really.

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[info]_triplethreat
2009-04-27 06:09 pm UTC (link)
I agree with everyone else. I just never said it... u say you're going to stop partying and u don't. u hook up with his best friend, u talk about other guys and how u talked to them all night, etc. Its not about looks, its about how you've treated him. To me it seemed u don't give a fuck about justin, and now you're crying? You need to think long and hard about how you've treated him honey.

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[info]logicalharmony
2009-04-27 06:18 pm UTC (link)
Uhg. Her? Still?

But, you need to make yourself happy sweetie. Not Justin, you. You are gorgeous and you look great, so don't even start on that! Lol. Remember, I did just see you recently and can vouch for that. You don't need to change a THING about yourself for him. You guys have been on and off for a while now and it's just time to stop trying so hard to make him happy and do what's best for you. Just focus on yourself and Zoe and doing what is best for the two of you. If you make yourself happy then everything that is supposed to fall into place will. ♥ ♥

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[info]xdancing3
2009-04-27 07:18 pm UTC (link)
I agree with everything everyone said. I never wanted to be harsh, but you almost have to be to get through to you.
a)She's not ugly. Do I think she's prettier than you?? Honestly, no. Ugly is a stretch though.
b)You tan, Blow money on the latest clothes, change your hair constantly, cake on makeup, etc. Thats okay, I do some of that too. However, its not my life. Its become your life ever since I've known you, and thats over 6 years. When it comes down to it, people really don't care that you're wearing the cutest outfit in the room, or that you're the tannest girl on the beach. If the personality sucks with it, you have no chance.
c)A guy isnt going to wrap you in his arms for throwing up for food. I've experienced that firsthand. They are going to take one look at you and say "She just wants attention, and probably has some kind of mental issue. NEXT." So cut the crap and be happy with YOURSELF and Zoe. You're more likely to get him back showing him you're happy.
d)Stop talking about getting drunk, partying, and hooking up with guys all the time. Moreso, stop doing it!! To tell you the truth, if I were Justin, I'd want a more stable girlfriend too. It's not good for you, and its not good for Zoe.

i'm sorry girl, I love you, but you make it really hard to feel sorry for you sometimes. You make bad decisions.

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